2/28 February 29, 2008

Would it kill you to breathe easy?
Only 17 miles lay between you and me
I could make it if I had to
I don’t break easily
You got my council, thick as thieves

Today is the 28th eh? Well today wasn’t crazily amazing but not bad nonetheless. I got a lot of sleep last night since there was a blizzard this morning which was beautiful. I got up and didn’t have time to eat basically just fixed myself up a bit and ran there. I skipped off another class again. I really should stop skipping off Bio and start catching up on all the classes i missed due to storms but right now i don’t seem to care. So anyways i came home and then went and helped Bob shovel his place and there was an ass load of snow piled up. Although with my help we got it done in a jiffy because of my brute power and strength. I really don’t understand why bob complains haha. Turns out the jobs at the Boys and Girls club is filled which kinda sucks because i was really hoping Bob would get one there. Anyways we went to Browns and had another good feed. Had six pack of chicken which is really deterring my six pack haha. According to Dr.Bob i am bitter so now i must carry out this so called bitterness haha. Oh by the way have to mention that there is no such thing as a taken girl haha. Although i should probably start saving up my money for easter which i don’t know will work out at this rate. Then i went to Drama and saw the play which i thought was pretty decent although i think i read it in a book somewhere before. We ended up turning it into a comedy which will make it all the more fun. I don’t know if i will continue going to Drama though because i don’t have a big enough role and i don’t really feel like wasting my time there. One more day in February left. Time flies. I saw the grade 8 kiddies and was like whoa gr 8 wasn’t that long ago. Good times, good times. This is a weird animated picture story look at it if your bored it is kind of whack. http://istheday.blogspot.com/2007/09/today-is-day.html

Anyways i still need a damn hobby haha.

I wonder what this dude is carrying?

Now this is what you really call trench warfare. MEOW

Well, listen to yourself
There is a hemmorage in your mouth
It won’t stop bleeding
Well, you may be the trigger
I will hold the smoking gun
You’ll get away clean

Feb27 February 28, 2008

so you say im just another dollar
so you say I’m just another day yeah
once my blood was strong but now its jaded and its thin
unlike you I can still tell right from wrong

Poems i wrote yesterday. It’s been a while since i partook in this lame hobby haha.

These eyes are sullen and red
did you really mean what you said?
my actions i begin to dread
empty lies i was fed
take this stake out of my corpse
i want to live again
where ambiance is plenty
and sweet aromas plague my mind

Your eyes are darker than my mind
your emotions i find
so hard to define
so hard to refine
please don’t whine
please show me a sign
I dont want to be another number in line

Im descending
To a better place
Where smiles dance on your face
Where i feel your embrace
I have tainted your soul
I have taken my toll
Please leave me
Please grieve me

Wednesday February the 27th. Time is flying guy. I guess the future doesn’t wait. Today i didn’t do much played a lot of counter strike. It was somewhat fun i guess. I spent a lot of time trying to get my microphone to work as it hasn’t been working very well in the past few days in fact i have barely been able to use it. Apparently there is supposed to be a storm tomorrow. I really hope there is. I started my math assignment today which is unusual since i usual don’t do homework or assignments until the day they are due or the day after. I was told today i have a mullet in gym class. Which amused me greatly as i hear they are pretty gay. I guess you guys don’t know how much effort i had to put to keep myself from getting a mushroom cut. Haha i like the dork style. Anyways according to Vicky i make her feel better by letting her thrown things at me which also amused me so i told her to throw anything she wants at me anytime but she just kept giggling. I really need a hobby but i can’t seem to find something that will stick. I mean i blog a nice bit and write poetry when I’m bored but its not really for profit. I hope there is a storm tomorrow even though i will be piss bored and waste the day away. Oh if your looking for a little go to this site it has few pictures and promise you wont be disappointed. Jubed

http://jubed.com/jokes/view/Motivators 

Anyways thats pretty much it for now.

some day you’ll know just how it feels
while you left me there twice before
some day you’ll know just how it feels
shattered, cast aside, stripped of your pride
like you were never nothing special
made you feel like another spoke in the wheel

“spoke in the wheel” - A mellow, yet popular sidelight in the society. Best served when you’re looking to wind down. (By the way, quit feeling sorry for yourself fuckface!)

That was in a special edition book of black label society and it was comment left by Zakk Wyled i believe. I thought it was the best thing ever.

Redemption February 27, 2008

And promise me, they will never see the tears within our eyes
(my eyes are closed)
Although we are men, with mortal sins, angels never cry

Alright apparently tonight we dine in hell may have went over a little bad. I don’t regret it as i don’t regret many things. I guess its easy to make false judgments and what not. So I’m going to clarify this a bit. Although i do hate clarifying things sometimes. Apparently i made her sound like a messed up bitch. Well anyways she is not a bitch in fact she is far from it. She might be a little messed up but who isn’t these days in fact i think the best of us are. Its probably me who is more messed up than she is. Now i probably made her out to sound to far worse than she really is. She is an amazing beautiful girl with intelligence and integrity that anyone would be lucky to have in their presence. Maybe a little narcissistic, stubborn, and naive but she is wonderful nonetheless.In fact she is probably better than most people. I don’t regret what happened and i hope she doesn’t we can’t change the past only the future. Just hope she remains happy as everything i have said still stands. Now don’t be quick to judge me or her for that matter on what i said as what i wrote was meant for me and certain people that can decode it the right way and i doubt most of you can. Also don’t blow it up or turn it into something its not. By the way there was a warning there for a reason so next time pay heed to those. Once again she is amazing and what not and i hope everyone can see that. Even the person she is with now is an amazing guy whom i know for a fact and i really do hope you guys are happy. Peace and Bliss too all as that is what anyone could ever wish for.

And in my dying
I’m more alive, than I have ever been
I will make this sacrifice
For I am Winter born 

Bday February 26, 2008

I’m a thousand miles from home
sleeping in my clothes
living like ive never have before
when the city falls into the sea
I try and make myself believe
that I’m after it but im only losing sleep

if only I could feel less indifferent
then maybe I could be more existent

 

It was Ian’s birthday yesterday and it was nice. I basically hung out with a lot of different people then. At first it was just a few people at my house that wanted to watch Dragon Ball Z. Then i contacted Ian to see what was on the go and we went for food. I gave some gold(chocolate coins) and hot chocolate for his birthday cant skimp on great gifts haha. Went back to Jordan’s place i was just following Ian around that day since it was his Birthday and i would really like for him to enjoy it. Didn’t know what to do and didn’t have much to do there so after a little bit i finally volunteered my place so that they can continue the DBZ marathon even though earlier i fell asleep through most of it. Anyways our walk to my house took a really long time since we stopped everywhere along the way including Tims in where we met a few people that i was planning on inviting when i got home so they wouldn’t be left out. I kind of wanted everyone to come since everyone complains about everyone not being able to hang out together. Anyways i bought French Vanillas for like 6 people because well i wanted everyone to have a good one tonight. We left went to irving and the others picked up snacks or munchies since i really don’t have anything. The people we met there didn’t come and i don’t know why since i did invite them maybe they just have issues. Anyways we marathoned for a bit and some of us went back to Jordan’s those that weren’t tired or what not and we got some mojo going while watching DBZ. It was pretty much an all guys night for most of this night which was awesome. Anyways we ended up making noodles and what not and then it turned into a giant cuddle fest on the couch with me jonk and dana. All 3 of slept on that one couch. Dana slept on my lap and i slept on jonks and we alternated through out the night doing various things. Apparently it looked really funny when all of us fell asleep Ian said and i can only imagine. So it was a pretty good night, one of the best i had in a while. Woke up the morning watched another epic amount of DBZ and then trudged home. I missed a call that woke me up but i couldn’t reply since it said blocked id and well i figured it was my parents. Shadow of the day woke me up today haha.

Now for some other stuff. Well here is a site that shows you pictures of cons or what not and the object is to guess their crime based solely on their looks. It’s actually kind of hard when you try it. http://guessmycrime.blogspot.com/
Now here is a little pic of social networking around the world its slightly interesting since all Canada is facebook and all US is Myspace although it does make sense.

and here is a picture that i found of a sad orange and well i like it as of now.

and this is another nice pic just for kicks.

Haven’t really started my revisionism yet. Which is a shame. Everything in stride i guess.

I’m dreaming hopelessly
in a city by the sea
it’s taken me so long to sing a simple song
I don’t belong

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Revisionism Pt.2 February 24, 2008

It’s alright
To tell me
What you think
About me
I won’t try
To argue
Or hold it
Against you 

Time to take action again. My earlier revisionism is kind of hard to stay true since my bathroom is bust and what not.My room is a mess again but whatever. One of my main reason for keeping the blog running is pretty much gone now although i think i am still going to keep it. Might change the style and what not to make it more mainstream. Although i will keep it running for the other important underlying reasons. In a few years i will look back and look at this and remember how stupid and pathetic i was. Hell maybe it wont be a few years it maybe it will be a few months. Got to get it together again.

Well here are some more pictures for all you guys that have nothing better to do than come to my blog.

The truth unveiled at last.

Damn it. I guess i can’t use the toilets on Japanese trains.

Thats me speaking by the way, the Dark Knight. The story of my life.

I started writing a story sometime in the past week of sheer boredom chances are it’ll be deleted soon. Haven’t really done much poetry lately but i haven’t been in the mood. I will write some in the near future although i think i need a better hobby and pretty much everyone else agrees with me haha. It’s February 24 and its sunny day with -8 degrees outside. No idea what to do. Yesterday was alright i guess didn’t eat much and got some mojo and it seems everyone is going through something haha.

I know that
You’re leaving
You must have
Your reasons
The season
Is calling 

Reign Over Me February 23, 2008

On the dry and dusty road
The nights we spend apart alone
I need to get back home to cool cool rain
I can’t sleep and I lay and I think
The night is hot and black as ink
Oh God, I need a drink of cool cool rain

Well last night was alright.I basically invited people that i haven’t been hanging out for a while and that want to hang out.  I managed to hang out with 2 people i haven’t hung out with in a while. These 2 people were looking for some company since they aren’t getting a lot lately and they are starting to feel it so i hung out with them. It was hard to grab Marcus but i eventually prevailed. Anyway we watched the movie Reign Over me last night and well it was a good movie i thought. It was about 2 friends one who lost his family in a plane crash who became a loner and decided to forget everything and start listening to music and what not collecting records. He became a very fragile and auqward guy. Anyway he meets up with his other friend and well they start coming together in a symbiotic relationship as the other guy isn’t really living life till he starts hanging out with his friend charlie(the aqward guy). Charlie just listens to records and carries headphones and continously remodels his kitchen. The other guy just leads a life he hates even though it is really cushy. I will refer to the movie later in the entry. So anyways we watched that and then Marcus and Chelsea had a dance off and i dugg up cds from like 4 years or more. Found some awesome rancid mxpx songs i forgot and what not. It was nice. Then it was me and just Marcus and we were just doing card tricks and eventually he left. So i jumped back on my comp all mellow and what not.  So anyways played some Cs and was just chilling. Listening to Lacey’s recurring problem and i told her to just ignore it and what not because really the choice is hers and its none of anyone else’s business unless she wants it to be. I mean i don’t think she should be taking that kind of garbage from anyone she is not my best friend or anything i just hate to see people get ragged on like that i dont think a friend would do that intentionally i wanted to tell him to screw off but i dont know if it happens again i guess i will. Anyways i got a response from someone who I’ve been waiting forever so yea.  Alright now for my reference to the movie i basically felt like Charlie did at the court when he was yelling out Reign O’er me, Reign O’er me with the music.If you watch the movie im sure you would probably understand how i was feeling at this point as the music is pretty intense. I don’t experience emotions like this much but whatever.  Wasn’t really too happy although I’m glad i got it nonetheless.  Now im just writing a letter perhaps its my last but i don’t seem to know anything for sure. Don’t know what the plan is for today just waiting for people to hit me up and we will see where it goes from there.

Love, Reign o’er me
Love, Reign o’er me, rain on me

Black Friday February 22, 2008

Black friday haha. Anyway here’s my blackness of today.

skipped yesterday because well i don’t know. Alright this blog entry is going to incorporate some things i’ve found on the internet because i’am bored and have nothing better to do. So here is what i came across on valentines day which i though was hilarious lol.

and the rest i found the day after i believe.

and this is one i strongly agree with plus it is one of my favorite cartoons, The Boondocks. I think they portray the message in a very simplistic way, such that even people of lesser intelligence can understand it. Oh these are some poem i don’t believe i have put up yet.

Paper Dove

This paper doves lays in my arms
with blessings of mother
is my delicate idol

A mere metaphor
with many folds
and so called flaws

A distorted reflection
of happiness and acceptance
so called perfection

This paper heart lays in my arms
with burning wings
and eyes filled with desire

Bored Rap Nameless

here i go
one finger on the trigger
the other in your eye
So what ya gonna do now?
i pummel the verses
with non stop curses
look like a classy noble
but hell i read no bible
So what ya gonna do now
Your please i disregard
for i have my mind to guard
Ill break that pretty face
and your name i will erase
my plans so reasonable
my victory is god damn feasible
Die Nameless

anyways I’m off for now.

and this pic is to make up for lack of yesterdays pic.

20/02 February 20, 2008

Ma inec in ochii tai, lal-la-lei
Plange lumea dupa ei, lal-la-lei
Well another Wednesday 20th of February. Well i guess i started the day by going to Tims at 5 in the morning. Bobby and Jumanji came and tapped on my window to wake up. I’m kind of disappointed they didn’t just walk in and slap me haha. It was pretty frickin cold and drafty on the way down. Apparently the cops checked them out 3 times when they were walking to me. Surprisingly they didn’t even drive by when i started walking with them. So anyways we made it Timmys and the breakfast sandwich and soup was amazing. Poor Jumanji who didn’t find the breakfast sandwiches to be as satisfying as the ones in Pasadena. Anyways it was a good breakfast and i usually never ever have breakfast. Anyways the way home wasn’t as painful but i was regretting fitness testing since i got around 6 hours in total of sleep in the past 2 days. I went home jumped on comp got bored. Then i just jumped on my bed and tuned to Alexisonfire for the next time period till i had to start getting ready to go to school. Oh by the way last night on my way home from my visit to the boys and girls club i walked past some friend lings and didn’t say anything so they thought i was pissed haha. Well some of them may read this blog so i guess i might as well explain. I was on my way home from the boys and girls club where i was taking a wonderful nap only to be disturbed someone jumping on me. Which completely woke me up and made me restless so i left. So anyways i just put on some alexisonfire and left on my way home or what not since i became restless and bored. I actually felt like going for a jog or run but well i would kill myself due to all the ice. So anyways i was listening to alexis and walking and i saw them and i walked by as they seemed to have plans or something. I myself was not too worried since i was just planning on going for a walk/ run since the weather was nice for once. So i passed them and i didn’t hear them say anything to me so i didn’t say anything back but i did a casual nod which they must not of noticed. So i just kept walking because well i was really into my walk or whatnot i did and didn’t want to disturb them. Also the fact that i didn’t want to fall down and die was a factor as to why i didn’t do more acknowledgment plus i couldn’t pick them out at first. Anyways thats that if i was pissed off at something i doubt i would just walk by without saying anything haha. Well thats that anyway. I have other issues and responses to deal with and those people know who they are. Now im still feeling semi tired and what not but luckily we didn’t do fitness testing. I had a semi nap in english i kinda passed out for like 20 mins while watching star wars even drooled a little little bit haha. Anyways better upload my pictures for this week.

Tuesday The 19th February 19, 2008

so what if now is all you have
live as if you never knew
what it was to lose
honestly have you ever been honest with yourself
or are you someone elses point of view

Alright i finally did something i have been intending to do for the past 3 months or so. Couldn’t really do it earlier because i never had the opportunity. I kinda rushed into it now because (”because i think im getting nowhere and think i might as well quit lol” and “otherwise imma do it really weird and aquardly”) well i figure its the only way and i don’t want to make any regrets. I’m not going to let it slip away or be forgotten. I don’t want it to turn it into something it is not and i kind of need to know because time well is running out. I didn’t really succeed or anything but i was actually expecting to fail. Well now i don’t know what to do i don’t understand the situation or logic behind it. I don’t understand what im supposed to do or what not. I really want to succeed but its not just about what i want. Id rather we all want it. So what am i to do now? Frustration consumes me.

you live in regret
it hurts to know how much you’ll miss
it’s what you expect
that leaves you such a mess

one day you’ll learn
no place will make you happier

I want to make it feel alright
hold you through the dark tonight

Alright time to get in the beautiful poem i wrote in physics class. I was bored and was not absorbing any of the material. I was just like screw this and started writing a poem while everyone else was doing physics. Pretty much summed up my mood for the morning haha.

Awaiting the next Bus
Foggy Monday mornings
Blatant resistant learning
Every mind is turning

The early morning glow
Smell of scrumptious morning dough
We all reap what we sow

The early morning haze
Everyone is in a daze
I should just jump in front of a bus and die.

Anyways pictures from this week or should i say today. I also had grad pictures today which i didn’t realize was after school so i wore a shirt to school. Im also going to put up a picture i made for kyle for his Birthday. Apparently it was falling off chair non stop laughing good. Haha  Peace & Bliss xD

Poor Ian the bus back from corner brook didn’t leave yesterday so he cant get grad pictures.  I got to start catching up in school since i think im digging myself a hole but i can’t seem to find the motivation plus i stopped caring i even stopped caring about grad pictures which i never would of guessed. I tried to get some sleep since i only got 2 hours last night but it didn’t seem to work. So I’m just going to treat it like another night.

What a lovely smile and i removed the cleavage for this pic haha.